Current mood:	confused
Current music:	On My Fathers Wings - The Coors

the inevitable has happened
Well it has finally happened. My Pa Paw Died last Night at 7:20pm after a long battle with Cancer. I am so Confused about how I am supposed to feel wight now. I know it is a part of life and I must accept it, but I have never lost a family member before other than an distant aunt or cousin. all I have ever know is having 4 grandparents, and now I have to learn to say 3. My Pa Paw was not an extremley nice man to most people, but he was never anything but Kind, Loving, and caring with me. He was my gentle giant. He gave the best bear hugs in the world. At time you wondered if he was gonna squeeze the breath right out of you. I think that is what I am trying to take with me. Not the memory of him looking like someone I used to take care of in the MRDD group homes. I LOVE YOU PA PAW. I hope you find peace wherever you are. I am so glad you will no longer hurt the way I saw you hurting at our last meeting. You always meant the world to me and I will miss you SO VERY MUCH.

I Have no Idea how I am supposed to be reacting right now this just does not even seem real right now.I feel so numb. I guess I will just keep going through my life like I always do. and just try to keep him in my heart and my memory


IN LOVING MEMORY OF LLOYD FREAMON Nov 1929- Dec 2003