RyHead

04:56 pm: WTF



Granted we all know this happens but Kudos to dove for showing the world the truth behind what the media tells us is beautiful

03:26 pm: Okay I really do need movie suggestions I just put the 6 disk oprah 20th aniversary DVD on my netflix cue, because I could not think of names of any movies I would like to see. SAVE ME FROM HARPO PRODUCTIONS!

08:44 am: hey I need netflix suggestions
I am a poor netflix user I only have about 10 movies on my cue, and suggestions from the crazies would be great!

03:13 pm: A little Humor for all of you on this sad sad sad scary day
The Centers for Disease Control has issued a warning about a new
virulent strain of sexually transmitted disease. This disease is
contracted through dangerous and high risk behavior and is called
Gonorrhea Lectim (pronounced "gonna re-elect him").

Many victims have contracted it after having been screwed for the past 4
years, in spite of having taken measures to protect themselves from this
especially troublesome disease. Cognitive sequellae of individuals
infected with Gonorrhea Lectim include, but are not limited to:

Anti-social personality disorder traits; delusions of grandeur with a
distinct messianic flavor; chronic mangling of the English language;
extreme cognitive dissonance; inability to incorporate new information;
pronounced xenophobia; inability to accept responsibility for actions;
exceptional cowardice masked by acts of misplaced bravado; uncontrolled
facial smirking; ignorance of geography and history; tendencies toward
creating Evangelical theocracies; and a strong propensity for
categorical, all-or nothing behavior.

The disease is sweeping Washington DC. Naturalists and epidemiologists
are amazed and baffled that this malignant disease originated only a few
years ago in a Texas bush.

01:45 pm: Lique and Arthur
Please forgive me for not getting this done sooner, but there has been so many date changes in the last week for this event that I could not pin anything down. That said Lique and Arthur's party to celebrate their upcomming nuptuials will be Sunday the 24th at 3pm. It will take place at Lique and Arthurs house. if you did not get an e-mail about it reply to my post with your e-mail address, and I will get it sent to you. Sorry again for the delay.

04:00 pm: SARAH CALL ME THIS IS THE ONLY WAY I KNOW HOW TO GET YOU I DO NOT KNOW YOU E-MAIL

LOVE YOU

RY

10:20 am: good news.........bad news
well the good news is I do not have anything like an aneurysm going on. the bad news they can not seem to stop this headache from hell. after another 3 hour session in the ER they still know nothing about what is causing this horrible pain in my skull. The Doc I saw yesterday seems to think I have a tension headache...........WELL IF IT IS JUST A HEADACHE GET RID OF IT. even my ultra positive roomie Shane_chance said the same thing last night. It makes no sense, If I just have a bad headache why can't they get rid of it. They have given me some very heave pain meds and all they have succeeded in doing is make me VERY sleepy and stupid. If this continues through tomorrow I am going to go see my doctor and see if he can figure this out. It all makes no fucking sense to me. They treat me for internal bleeding in my leg and end up fucking up the rest of me at the same time. WARNING TMI coming up. I have not had A BM in a week now that is starting to scare me a bit because it can poison you to death so I have to do something about that today. I got something called Magnesium citrate, hopefully it will make that problem better. Thanks to all my chorus for holding my hand through all this. it has been a very difficult week and you have all been there when I needed you. even if I was being a bitchy queen. I know that Robert preston said in "Victor Victoria" "there's nothing worse than a queen with a head cold" but I say There's nothing worse than a wimpy queen in pain.

09:45 am: the blue period
I am not sure why I can't shake this feeling of doom hanging over my head, maybe I should not say doom. I just know that my stomach it is knots constantly I am a nervous wreck. I am trying very hard to accept the things I need to change in my life but it is very overwhelming. I just keep thinking that I can't do it, I can't change; but I know I have to and I will. I am already making some progress. I just have to be more careful. God this is a long ugly road and it is not fucking paved at all. be patient with me and forgive my aloofness. I know I am distant but I feel very removed from myself. It is like standing outside my body and leaving the shell there to communicate with everyone. I do stop back by and hop in once and a while though. anyway someday it will all be different I hope. till then this is my life. and I must accept that.

10:23 pm: Still Anxiety ridden, still depressed and still feel like I am the uberbitch of the universe. Sorry I am so snippy to all. I don't want anyone to feel like I am pushing them away or being a complete asshole, but at time I am at a loss for words. and I still am not in a place where I am comfortable talking much about how I feel, or for that matter what I feel (like I even know). Hopefully it will all pass soon, in the meantime bear with me, and ignore me if I sound like I am being an ass.

12:19 pm: When is my stress going to end. I am so sick of crying and screaming. Of course it is only when I am alone. being perky and nice is becoming hard. People are not really bothering me but it is so hard to act like I am fine when I feel like I am not. someone just make it go away. God I sound so freaking whiney.Sorry for that