RyHead

04:56 pm: WTF



Granted we all know this happens but Kudos to dove for showing the world the truth behind what the media tells us is beautiful

03:26 pm: Okay I really do need movie suggestions I just put the 6 disk oprah 20th aniversary DVD on my netflix cue, because I could not think of names of any movies I would like to see. SAVE ME FROM HARPO PRODUCTIONS!

08:44 am: hey I need netflix suggestions
I am a poor netflix user I only have about 10 movies on my cue, and suggestions from the crazies would be great!

03:13 pm: A little Humor for all of you on this sad sad sad scary day
The Centers for Disease Control has issued a warning about a new
virulent strain of sexually transmitted disease. This disease is
contracted through dangerous and high risk behavior and is called
Gonorrhea Lectim (pronounced "gonna re-elect him").

Many victims have contracted it after having been screwed for the past 4
years, in spite of having taken measures to protect themselves from this
especially troublesome disease. Cognitive sequellae of individuals
infected with Gonorrhea Lectim include, but are not limited to:

Anti-social personality disorder traits; delusions of grandeur with a
distinct messianic flavor; chronic mangling of the English language;
extreme cognitive dissonance; inability to incorporate new information;
pronounced xenophobia; inability to accept responsibility for actions;
exceptional cowardice masked by acts of misplaced bravado; uncontrolled
facial smirking; ignorance of geography and history; tendencies toward
creating Evangelical theocracies; and a strong propensity for
categorical, all-or nothing behavior.

The disease is sweeping Washington DC. Naturalists and epidemiologists
are amazed and baffled that this malignant disease originated only a few
years ago in a Texas bush.

01:45 pm: Lique and Arthur
Please forgive me for not getting this done sooner, but there has been so many date changes in the last week for this event that I could not pin anything down. That said Lique and Arthur's party to celebrate their upcomming nuptuials will be Sunday the 24th at 3pm. It will take place at Lique and Arthurs house. if you did not get an e-mail about it reply to my post with your e-mail address, and I will get it sent to you. Sorry again for the delay.

04:00 pm: SARAH CALL ME THIS IS THE ONLY WAY I KNOW HOW TO GET YOU I DO NOT KNOW YOU E-MAIL

LOVE YOU

RY

10:20 am: good news.........bad news
well the good news is I do not have anything like an aneurysm going on. the bad news they can not seem to stop this headache from hell. after another 3 hour session in the ER they still know nothing about what is causing this horrible pain in my skull. The Doc I saw yesterday seems to think I have a tension headache...........WELL IF IT IS JUST A HEADACHE GET RID OF IT. even my ultra positive roomie Shane_chance said the same thing last night. It makes no sense, If I just have a bad headache why can't they get rid of it. They have given me some very heave pain meds and all they have succeeded in doing is make me VERY sleepy and stupid. If this continues through tomorrow I am going to go see my doctor and see if he can figure this out. It all makes no fucking sense to me. They treat me for internal bleeding in my leg and end up fucking up the rest of me at the same time. WARNING TMI coming up. I have not had A BM in a week now that is starting to scare me a bit because it can poison you to death so I have to do something about that today. I got something called Magnesium citrate, hopefully it will make that problem better. Thanks to all my chorus for holding my hand through all this. it has been a very difficult week and you have all been there when I needed you. even if I was being a bitchy queen. I know that Robert preston said in "Victor Victoria" "there's nothing worse than a queen with a head cold" but I say There's nothing worse than a wimpy queen in pain.

09:45 am: the blue period
I am not sure why I can't shake this feeling of doom hanging over my head, maybe I should not say doom. I just know that my stomach it is knots constantly I am a nervous wreck. I am trying very hard to accept the things I need to change in my life but it is very overwhelming. I just keep thinking that I can't do it, I can't change; but I know I have to and I will. I am already making some progress. I just have to be more careful. God this is a long ugly road and it is not fucking paved at all. be patient with me and forgive my aloofness. I know I am distant but I feel very removed from myself. It is like standing outside my body and leaving the shell there to communicate with everyone. I do stop back by and hop in once and a while though. anyway someday it will all be different I hope. till then this is my life. and I must accept that.

10:23 pm: Still Anxiety ridden, still depressed and still feel like I am the uberbitch of the universe. Sorry I am so snippy to all. I don't want anyone to feel like I am pushing them away or being a complete asshole, but at time I am at a loss for words. and I still am not in a place where I am comfortable talking much about how I feel, or for that matter what I feel (like I even know). Hopefully it will all pass soon, in the meantime bear with me, and ignore me if I sound like I am being an ass.

12:19 pm: When is my stress going to end. I am so sick of crying and screaming. Of course it is only when I am alone. being perky and nice is becoming hard. People are not really bothering me but it is so hard to act like I am fine when I feel like I am not. someone just make it go away. God I sound so freaking whiney.Sorry for that

09:16 am: something bad is happening, something very bad is happening. Something stinks, something immoral, something so bad that words have lost their meaning. Rumors fly and tales abound stories echo underground. Something bad is spreading spreading spreading round.

Just kinda my mood right now. I just kinda feel like I am going to burst. I am going to make a big effort starting today to stop the smoking and CUT WAY BACK on the booze. I just want to feel happy. I want to know what is wrong with me. why am I so depressed and angry. yeah I can put on a happy mask and play nice but there is something deep inside that needs fixed.

there maybe venting all that will help.

09:31 pm: WALKING IN A WINTER WONDERLAND
I just got back from the most wonderful walk in the snow. That has got to be one of my most favorite things in the world to do. I know this is a cheesy post, but I feel so alive right now I love the pure peace that snow brings. The silence is so wonderful it makes you forget everything that is wrong in the world for just a short period. It also just makes me really love being alive just to feel it. I love you all and hope everyone remembers the joy we all bring to each others lives. We are bound by the love we feel for each other and will hold steadfast forever.

Your always CHEESY GAY BOY,

Ryhead

04:30 pm: the inevitable has happened
Well it has finally happened. My Pa Paw Died last Night at 7:20pm after a long battle with Cancer. I am so Confused about how I am supposed to feel wight now. I know it is a part of life and I must accept it, but I have never lost a family member before other than an distant aunt or cousin. all I have ever know is having 4 grandparents, and now I have to learn to say 3. My Pa Paw was not an extremley nice man to most people, but he was never anything but Kind, Loving, and caring with me. He was my gentle giant. He gave the best bear hugs in the world. At time you wondered if he was gonna squeeze the breath right out of you. I think that is what I am trying to take with me. Not the memory of him looking like someone I used to take care of in the MRDD group homes. I LOVE YOU PA PAW. I hope you find peace wherever you are. I am so glad you will no longer hurt the way I saw you hurting at our last meeting. You always meant the world to me and I will miss you SO VERY MUCH.

I Have no Idea how I am supposed to be reacting right now this just does not even seem real right now.I feel so numb. I guess I will just keep going through my life like I always do. and just try to keep him in my heart and my memory


IN LOVING MEMORY OF LLOYD FREAMON Nov 1929- Dec 2003

01:05 pm: What is your Full Name?
Cryin Ryan

What Color Trousers are you wearing now?
black Jeans

What are you listening to now?
obscure broadway songs

What are the last 2 digits of your phone number?
69 YAH FOR ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!

What was the last thing you ate?
a yummy machaca burrito

If you were a crayon what color would you be?
Purple DUH

How is the weather right now?
shitty

Last person you talked to on the phone?
Gina Bo Bina

The first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
well since I am gay I guess eyes I don't really look other places

How are you today?
groovy

Favorite Drink?
any soda with lots of caffine

Alcoholic drink?
A good fruty Beer

Favorite sports?
sports Blech!!!!!!!!!!!

Hair Color:
currently black

Eye Color:
hazle

Favorite month: I guess June

Favorite food:
chips and salsa (with lots of cilantro)

Last Movie you watched?
Singing in the rain

What book are you reading?
Joy Luck Club

Favorite day of the year?
not sure halloween I guess

Are you too shy to ask someone out?
I would be killed if I did

Summer or Winter?
neither Autem

Hugs or Kisses?
Smooching!

Chocolate or Vanilla?
Vanilla

What do you usually do when have absolutely nothing to do?
Clean Clean Clean cLEAN (Get Down With OCD)

What is on your mouse pad?
Harry Potter riding the first years boat to Hogwarts Castle

Favorite Board Game?
I guess anyhting pop culture trivia

What did you do last night?
Partied with the family

Favorite Smell?
love the smell of clean clothes right out of the dryer

Can you touch your nose with your tongue?
Girl I can practically pick it

What inspires you?
the theatre

Buttered, plain or salted popcorn?
plain with parmasean cheese

Favorite flower?
freezia

What is the first thing you think of when you wake up in the morning?
FUCK

What do you keep under your bed?
my old boyfriends corpses

When is your birthday?
9/23

What food do you like that most people hate?
alligator pizza

What food do you hate that most people love?
Fresh Tomatos BLECH BLECH BLECH putrid vlie fruit, okay when it is cooked in a dish though

09:53 am: thke the Quiz
http://www.quizilla.com/users/seed2003/quizzes/Which%20Steel%20Magnolia%20are%20you?

09:52 am: okay lets prove it once and for all and no cheating
You are Truvy!

"Time marches on and sooner or later you
realize it is marchin' across your face."

You are a true friend. You try your best to keep
everyone happy. Heck, you even do their
hair... for free! You're very emotional and
find the joy and positivity in things. You
also always forget about yourself.


Which Steel Magnolia are you?
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07:28 am:
Take the 100 Acre Personality Quiz!

12:03 pm: Freaky Freddys!!!!
Okay I definitely live next to the scariest Fred Meyer in Portland, maybe all or Oregon. as I was leaving there was a drunk woman in front of the McDonalds talking about a leg injury to some man. she then proceeded to pull he pants down and show him. and she just happened to pull down her underwear at the same time. Yes little queen Ry saw BUSH and it was not a pretty sight let me tell you. let me just say that is something I do not need to see in a place where I buy my food EEEEWWWWWW. Anyway now I am scarred for the rest of the day. Some people have no class

09:06 pm: oh so sorry
Hey Kids,

I am still sicky so tomorow is canceled I have frog voice and just sleep due to the wonderful Doctor who game me cough syrup with codeine WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. anyway I love you all and am very sorry. hope you all have a HAPPY HALLOWEEN

02:17 pm: Trick-or-Treat part 2
Okay Ladycakes wassup with stealing my candy BITCH!!! You best give it back or I will haunt your ass on Halloween